Went to work as usual.Emilo's torn jeans simply sucks.I wore it today and can't pass through the scan thingy.Maybe its because of the zippers or button.I was very blurr while doing the flexing handphones.While going home, we met a woodlander in the bus.She just started working and she's an o level candidate this year.Alahh..I don't get to watch tiramisu tomorrow..

Watched rock school just now.And it simply rocks my socks off.Its a documentary about paul green's school of rock.Showed how the students learn to play the instruments, the ups and downs of being part of it all, the gigs they performed at and etc.Basically, its a music school for the ages of 9 to 17.The ones aged 9 are so adorable and they're so fucking talented..Ohh and there's one boy, he's 12yrs old if I'm not wrong.The way he plays the guitar is sooo...there's just no words to describe really.I'm astounded.I'm really inspired by him..I mean he's just a kid and yet he's..alahh, I'm all out of words.

Took the train to yck.I tapped my ezlink and then that red thing didn't let me pass through.It was then I realised that I tapped on the wrong side.The one with the red cross sign.Slenger.Took overtime.Chlorine nagged at me yesterday because I decided to take overtime on saturday and not sunday.Making a big fuss and purposely embarassing me infront of the people there.Nag nag nag..mentang2 rambot baru..macam rambot wig.HAHA!!.Myra brought mee siam but then she forgot to bring forks.Kedondong.So,we used our hands..heh.Luckily, she* didnt come.She* is a newbie and she's very scary.She'll pop out of nowhere and when I least expected to see her.Okay.Imagine when you're on the lookout for someone you're trying your best to avoid and when you turn around, she's right..infront of your face.She's inevitable I tell you.Creepy sia.She'll laugh when its not something to laugh about.She calls me kakak when she is a yr older than me.I have to constantly remind her that I'm younger than her.She follows me almost wherever I go.It's not that I don't like her.I mean I'm intimidated by her presence.I often caught her staring or looking at me while I'm doing my work.She's in the same line as me.Myra 's fortunate because she's not in the same line.She* also shares the same locker as myra and me.At first, we thought that she* was okay so we afforded her to share the same locker as us since she's new and all.However, there's only one key.And it's usually with me.Myra and I feared that she* might lost the key.Bile kasi die kunci,she's like reluctant to give it back to me.I sacrificed 5 bucks to make a spare key for her.At the end of the day, Myra and I sat at the last row in the bus when it was time to go home..Laughed a lot and talked about our plans for tomorrow plus "complimenting" chlorine's new hair style.*wink*

Myra and i brisk walk to the bus stop.Missed the transport.Took the mrt to yck, all sweaty plus drenched because of the rain.Hailed for a cab and got there before 3pm.Got our pay..heh.-Azi, wait i blanja you when I get my 1 mth pay ehhh..hehe.But its not that much ar because they deduct $60(from lockers,smogs,badges etc.).They'll give us the $60 back when we resign.Today was pretty hectic.I'm getting tired of working there can't wait to send my resignation.I'm already counting the days left..haha.I got a slight headache while flexing.I assume its because i was caught in the rain while going to work.And ohh my the weather is so so cold.My thick hands are pale and freaking cold because of the weather condition plus the air con.I ate as soon as i got home.Hungry sia..after that, took a cold shower and played the computer.Oh how I adore cold weathers..

Firstly, we went to fin's house.Myra,izni,hilma,ham and me.After that, went to hilma's house.Her mom cooked fried noodle..ate and watched the telly.Walked all the way to azi's house.His house is some sort like ariff's house ar.Nice and cosy.Took the 913 bus to myra's house..Her small niece is very cute.Cute but terrifying.And she seems to like fin..she stared at fin like one kind like that..hahah.Hamdani's house is spacious..we watched senario(cd or dvd ar).Went to causeway pnt to buy scented candles again..I think I'm addicted to scented candles..heheh.However,they didn't come to my house.I told them to come tomorrow...

At work, I had to go here and there..put mini stickers on the hp covers,do power up and some packaging..So fussy somemore must put sticker, must be so so exactly accurate.Felt so tired standing for so long.I think I prefer doing flexing rather than packing.Had lunch alone because Myra cant go early..I told chlorine that i wont be doing OT tmr and sunday.She said,"not doing OT??, last wk oso u nvr do rite?".I said, "I do areadi ar last saturday".Then she walked away..haha.After work, we walked all the way to yck mrt coz i have to go for an appointment at wlds polyclinic.Bought blueberry ice blended on the way and watched mr bean while waiting to be called.While walking towards marsiling mrt..myra and i were disturbed by some boys.We tried to ignore but then one of them tried to approach us.We walked super fast.Luckily he didn't follow us all the way to the overhead bridge.Psycho..i hate guys like that.After that, went to causeway pnt to find some scented candles.It was hard to find at first but then we found the shop..heh.Bought lavender,strawberry and vanilla scented candles...Oh and we went inside "natural source" and we met kak syikin.She used to be my senior.She remembered me..hehe.She's becoming more prettier and chubbier.Got home ard 6 plus like that.

4 o'clock in the fucking morning..took a cold shower and got dressed.My mom pre heated the fried macaroni for me and myra to eat during the break.When I was about to leave the house, it was raining heavily.The umbrella was not useful at all.Myra and I were soaking wet by the time we got to the work place.Dried our shoes using the hand dryer..heh.And we had to endure the cold temperature due to the air-con.Work was okay I guess..next week we'll probably do afternn shift.Really miss my classmates..sigh.Going out with my best friend later on..It's been a long time since we went out together.


We'll run away together, we'll spend some time forever.

I already knew that this day would come.Why do horrible things always happen to me??.I'm in a dilemma so just let me cry.

Went to catch the exorcism of emily rose.It was so-so yet pretty interesting.There's mostly suspense.Walked ard causeway pnt,civic centre after that..Saw many peeps go jln raya.Felt a bit jealous ar..coz i have not yet started going jln raya.Got home ard 7pm.

Woke up ard 4 plus in the morn.Waited for the transport.Missed it.So,we took a cab with myra and this lady whose working at the same place as us.We got there on time.The one in charge asked me whether i could do overtime tmr and on sunday.

her:can you take OT?
me:*act blurr*must take arr..?
her:ya!.you ask ar..those who have worked here before.
And so,i gave her a reluctant face expression.
me:umm..i dont want ar..
her:you dont want ar..?.i can give you chance since you're new.but next wk you must take OT.My memory very good you know..i can remember your face.

I was like..wtf.Next wk jln raye with my classmates.So, i decided to do OT tmr.But i wont be doing OT on sunday coz i've already got plans...heh.

Woke up late but i managed to get dress on time to wait for myra.Went to yio chu kang mrt, taxi stand there.The person in charge was late again.After waiting for almost half an hour, i felt like puking and i was beginning to have cold sweat.Pandai sgt makan obat dgn perot kosong..I rushed to the yio chu kang's mrt station toilet.On the way..near the control station, i almost threw up and there were many poly students and other people ar.Luckily, i didnt sey..i would certainly be the centre of attraction if i puked there.I threw up as soon as i got into the cubicle.It was blue in colour..heh.After that i felt very weak.But i did went to work.Made new friends and most of them are older than me.The job was not so tough.

Woke up at around 8 plus in the morn.Myra came over, along with the trusty newspaper she just bought.Circled the jobs we're interested in and we've got ourselves 3 job interviews to go to.Decided to go to the nearest location which is located at ang mo kio.Waited for the person in charge for like 45mins..Despite the long wait,we got the job.Yay!!.It was worth waiting..Myra almost gave up hope but i managed to convince her to stay.At night,have to visit my relatives.Alahh..im so worn out.Ohh yeah..i'll be working on weekdays only,from monday to fridays.And so,i'll be starting work as from tomorrow onwards.Have to be at the yio chu kang mrt, taxi stand by 8am.

Met up with myra at the usual bus stop.Accompanied her to alter her jeans at somewhere ard the kfc at marsiling.Bought some snacks and i bought a red long sleeve shirt.Myra came over and we watched skeleton key.The picture was not so clear..haha.At night,emilo brought her friends over..skali aziee,nad,liyana all came inside my room..i was playing the comp.Mane dgn rambot,short bunge2..selekeh sey.Buat malu aku je..haii.
Alahhh...i want to watch the exorcism of emily rose ar.I heard it was based on a true story.

A Grave Mistake

Tears kept flowing from my eyes. My cheeks were wet. I could not hold them back. The rage within me would not go off. I felt as though the time was moving very slowly. It seemed like forever waiting for the bus.
At last, the bus came. The bus was not so crowded. Everyone looked at me as if I was from another planet. I sat at the corner and reflected on what had happened earlier.
My parents were bias against me. They favored my younger sister, Emily. They seemed to love her more. Everything I did was wrong. I was not as smart as her nor was I talented as Emily. I felt as though I was not part of the family. I felt like a total stranger.
I could not take it anymore and decided to run away from home. I thought I could survive on my own but I was wrong. I was almost raped by a stranger while walking aimlessly in the dark alley alone. I managed to hit him on the head with a thick wooden stick and ran as fast as I could without turning back. I was terrified and regretted running away from home.
I had nowhere to go. I was not so sure where to go. It was raining cats and dogs so I finally settled down under a block. My clothes were soaking wet and I was quivering due to the cold surrounding.
Suddenly, from the corner of my eye, I saw shadows. It looks familiar. As it moved towards me, I then realised that that was my parents and I was so glad to see them. I have never felt so safe and secure in their arms. I apologised for running away from home and making them worry sick about me.
This made me realise that my parents loved me the same as they loved Emily. Maybe I was too jealous of Emily and I have let my imagination run wild. I began to appreciate my parents more after that.

The End.

I was extremely shocked when sif asked me for forgiveness and wished selamat hari raya through msn just now.I mean, it has been almost a year since we interacted with each other.And since,his O level starts tomorrow, i wished sif all the best.So,we're friends now.I forgive him but i still can't forget what he did to me.It's all in the past and life goes on...
Anyway, i've met this special someone whom i knew for almost a year and we'll see how it goes from there..

I feel that this year's raya is pretty boring.There's nothing special.Sitting at the corner of someone else's house and not doing anything..it's very boring.Unless it's my relative's house ar.My purple baju kebaya is ruined and its only been worn once.Oh yar, somewhere in the third week of this month, I have to go to KL because one of my relative there is getting married.


No words to say, when you're away...

Woke up ard 7 plus in the morn.Went for hari raya prayer with my mom.Dressed up and met myra to get the henna.Before we leave the house,we apologised to one another.It was hard to hold back the tears but i was successful in not letting myself cry.The ishak family went to 3 houses today.Seranggon,yishun and lastly marsiling dr.The whole day was pretty much umm..okay.

I am indecisive.
I am easily excited.
I am blurr.
Slenger also..
I am slow.
I am getting fat.
My hands are not smooth and small.
I have acne problem.
I perspire easily.
I consider myself lame.
I am usually shy towards the opposite gender.
I find it hard to look into the eyes of the opposite gender when we're having a conversation.
I hate my hair.
I am a child at heart.
I cant swim.
But I can ride a bicycle.
I'm scared of spiders.
I love art.
I love hand made stuffs.
I tend to change topic when I dont want to answer a particular question.
I never smoke or drink.
I hate maths.
I hate milk.
I hate wearing rings.
I hate techno.
I have a soft spot towards children and furry animals.

.........

Woke up in the afternoon so the plan of going to emilo's sch was cancelled.But we went to ang mo kio instead to get the second hand high cut chucks from azri.At night, went terawih with my mom.After that,i took over emilo's place..paint the gate.Arghh..my room still looks like a tongkang pecah.So much to do,so little time.

manipulated
fine arts
12 april

a girl who is trying to figure out what life could bring
who is learning to appreciate the simple things in life
who never thought that she would fall for someone who contrasts sharply in abilities and interests.

Went to work as usual.Emilo's torn jeans simply sucks.I wore it today and can't pass through the scan thingy.Maybe its because of the zippers or button.I was very blurr while doing the flexing handphones.While going home, we met a woodlander in the bus.She just started working and she's an o level candidate this year.Alahh..I don't get to watch tiramisu tomorrow..

Watched rock school just now.And it simply rocks my socks off.Its a documentary about paul green's school of rock.Showed how the students learn to play the instruments, the ups and downs of being part of it all, the gigs they performed at and etc.Basically, its a music school for the ages of 9 to 17.The ones aged 9 are so adorable and they're so fucking talented..Ohh and there's one boy, he's 12yrs old if I'm not wrong.The way he plays the guitar is sooo...there's just no words to describe really.I'm astounded.I'm really inspired by him..I mean he's just a kid and yet he's..alahh, I'm all out of words.

Took the train to yck.I tapped my ezlink and then that red thing didn't let me pass through.It was then I realised that I tapped on the wrong side.The one with the red cross sign.Slenger.Took overtime.Chlorine nagged at me yesterday because I decided to take overtime on saturday and not sunday.Making a big fuss and purposely embarassing me infront of the people there.Nag nag nag..mentang2 rambot baru..macam rambot wig.HAHA!!.Myra brought mee siam but then she forgot to bring forks.Kedondong.So,we used our hands..heh.Luckily, she* didnt come.She* is a newbie and she's very scary.She'll pop out of nowhere and when I least expected to see her.Okay.Imagine when you're on the lookout for someone you're trying your best to avoid and when you turn around, she's right..infront of your face.She's inevitable I tell you.Creepy sia.She'll laugh when its not something to laugh about.She calls me kakak when she is a yr older than me.I have to constantly remind her that I'm younger than her.She follows me almost wherever I go.It's not that I don't like her.I mean I'm intimidated by her presence.I often caught her staring or looking at me while I'm doing my work.She's in the same line as me.Myra 's fortunate because she's not in the same line.She* also shares the same locker as myra and me.At first, we thought that she* was okay so we afforded her to share the same locker as us since she's new and all.However, there's only one key.And it's usually with me.Myra and I feared that she* might lost the key.Bile kasi die kunci,she's like reluctant to give it back to me.I sacrificed 5 bucks to make a spare key for her.At the end of the day, Myra and I sat at the last row in the bus when it was time to go home..Laughed a lot and talked about our plans for tomorrow plus "complimenting" chlorine's new hair style.*wink*

Myra and i brisk walk to the bus stop.Missed the transport.Took the mrt to yck, all sweaty plus drenched because of the rain.Hailed for a cab and got there before 3pm.Got our pay..heh.-Azi, wait i blanja you when I get my 1 mth pay ehhh..hehe.But its not that much ar because they deduct $60(from lockers,smogs,badges etc.).They'll give us the $60 back when we resign.Today was pretty hectic.I'm getting tired of working there can't wait to send my resignation.I'm already counting the days left..haha.I got a slight headache while flexing.I assume its because i was caught in the rain while going to work.And ohh my the weather is so so cold.My thick hands are pale and freaking cold because of the weather condition plus the air con.I ate as soon as i got home.Hungry sia..after that, took a cold shower and played the computer.Oh how I adore cold weathers..

Firstly, we went to fin's house.Myra,izni,hilma,ham and me.After that, went to hilma's house.Her mom cooked fried noodle..ate and watched the telly.Walked all the way to azi's house.His house is some sort like ariff's house ar.Nice and cosy.Took the 913 bus to myra's house..Her small niece is very cute.Cute but terrifying.And she seems to like fin..she stared at fin like one kind like that..hahah.Hamdani's house is spacious..we watched senario(cd or dvd ar).Went to causeway pnt to buy scented candles again..I think I'm addicted to scented candles..heheh.However,they didn't come to my house.I told them to come tomorrow...

At work, I had to go here and there..put mini stickers on the hp covers,do power up and some packaging..So fussy somemore must put sticker, must be so so exactly accurate.Felt so tired standing for so long.I think I prefer doing flexing rather than packing.Had lunch alone because Myra cant go early..I told chlorine that i wont be doing OT tmr and sunday.She said,"not doing OT??, last wk oso u nvr do rite?".I said, "I do areadi ar last saturday".Then she walked away..haha.After work, we walked all the way to yck mrt coz i have to go for an appointment at wlds polyclinic.Bought blueberry ice blended on the way and watched mr bean while waiting to be called.While walking towards marsiling mrt..myra and i were disturbed by some boys.We tried to ignore but then one of them tried to approach us.We walked super fast.Luckily he didn't follow us all the way to the overhead bridge.Psycho..i hate guys like that.After that, went to causeway pnt to find some scented candles.It was hard to find at first but then we found the shop..heh.Bought lavender,strawberry and vanilla scented candles...Oh and we went inside "natural source" and we met kak syikin.She used to be my senior.She remembered me..hehe.She's becoming more prettier and chubbier.Got home ard 6 plus like that.

4 o'clock in the fucking morning..took a cold shower and got dressed.My mom pre heated the fried macaroni for me and myra to eat during the break.When I was about to leave the house, it was raining heavily.The umbrella was not useful at all.Myra and I were soaking wet by the time we got to the work place.Dried our shoes using the hand dryer..heh.And we had to endure the cold temperature due to the air-con.Work was okay I guess..next week we'll probably do afternn shift.Really miss my classmates..sigh.Going out with my best friend later on..It's been a long time since we went out together.


We'll run away together, we'll spend some time forever.

I already knew that this day would come.Why do horrible things always happen to me??.I'm in a dilemma so just let me cry.

Went to catch the exorcism of emily rose.It was so-so yet pretty interesting.There's mostly suspense.Walked ard causeway pnt,civic centre after that..Saw many peeps go jln raya.Felt a bit jealous ar..coz i have not yet started going jln raya.Got home ard 7pm.

Woke up ard 4 plus in the morn.Waited for the transport.Missed it.So,we took a cab with myra and this lady whose working at the same place as us.We got there on time.The one in charge asked me whether i could do overtime tmr and on sunday.

her:can you take OT?
me:*act blurr*must take arr..?
her:ya!.you ask ar..those who have worked here before.
And so,i gave her a reluctant face expression.
me:umm..i dont want ar..
her:you dont want ar..?.i can give you chance since you're new.but next wk you must take OT.My memory very good you know..i can remember your face.

I was like..wtf.Next wk jln raye with my classmates.So, i decided to do OT tmr.But i wont be doing OT on sunday coz i've already got plans...heh.

Woke up late but i managed to get dress on time to wait for myra.Went to yio chu kang mrt, taxi stand there.The person in charge was late again.After waiting for almost half an hour, i felt like puking and i was beginning to have cold sweat.Pandai sgt makan obat dgn perot kosong..I rushed to the yio chu kang's mrt station toilet.On the way..near the control station, i almost threw up and there were many poly students and other people ar.Luckily, i didnt sey..i would certainly be the centre of attraction if i puked there.I threw up as soon as i got into the cubicle.It was blue in colour..heh.After that i felt very weak.But i did went to work.Made new friends and most of them are older than me.The job was not so tough.

Woke up at around 8 plus in the morn.Myra came over, along with the trusty newspaper she just bought.Circled the jobs we're interested in and we've got ourselves 3 job interviews to go to.Decided to go to the nearest location which is located at ang mo kio.Waited for the person in charge for like 45mins..Despite the long wait,we got the job.Yay!!.It was worth waiting..Myra almost gave up hope but i managed to convince her to stay.At night,have to visit my relatives.Alahh..im so worn out.Ohh yeah..i'll be working on weekdays only,from monday to fridays.And so,i'll be starting work as from tomorrow onwards.Have to be at the yio chu kang mrt, taxi stand by 8am.

Met up with myra at the usual bus stop.Accompanied her to alter her jeans at somewhere ard the kfc at marsiling.Bought some snacks and i bought a red long sleeve shirt.Myra came over and we watched skeleton key.The picture was not so clear..haha.At night,emilo brought her friends over..skali aziee,nad,liyana all came inside my room..i was playing the comp.Mane dgn rambot,short bunge2..selekeh sey.Buat malu aku je..haii.
Alahhh...i want to watch the exorcism of emily rose ar.I heard it was based on a true story.

A Grave Mistake

Tears kept flowing from my eyes. My cheeks were wet. I could not hold them back. The rage within me would not go off. I felt as though the time was moving very slowly. It seemed like forever waiting for the bus.
At last, the bus came. The bus was not so crowded. Everyone looked at me as if I was from another planet. I sat at the corner and reflected on what had happened earlier.
My parents were bias against me. They favored my younger sister, Emily. They seemed to love her more. Everything I did was wrong. I was not as smart as her nor was I talented as Emily. I felt as though I was not part of the family. I felt like a total stranger.
I could not take it anymore and decided to run away from home. I thought I could survive on my own but I was wrong. I was almost raped by a stranger while walking aimlessly in the dark alley alone. I managed to hit him on the head with a thick wooden stick and ran as fast as I could without turning back. I was terrified and regretted running away from home.
I had nowhere to go. I was not so sure where to go. It was raining cats and dogs so I finally settled down under a block. My clothes were soaking wet and I was quivering due to the cold surrounding.
Suddenly, from the corner of my eye, I saw shadows. It looks familiar. As it moved towards me, I then realised that that was my parents and I was so glad to see them. I have never felt so safe and secure in their arms. I apologised for running away from home and making them worry sick about me.
This made me realise that my parents loved me the same as they loved Emily. Maybe I was too jealous of Emily and I have let my imagination run wild. I began to appreciate my parents more after that.

The End.

I was extremely shocked when sif asked me for forgiveness and wished selamat hari raya through msn just now.I mean, it has been almost a year since we interacted with each other.And since,his O level starts tomorrow, i wished sif all the best.So,we're friends now.I forgive him but i still can't forget what he did to me.It's all in the past and life goes on...
Anyway, i've met this special someone whom i knew for almost a year and we'll see how it goes from there..

I feel that this year's raya is pretty boring.There's nothing special.Sitting at the corner of someone else's house and not doing anything..it's very boring.Unless it's my relative's house ar.My purple baju kebaya is ruined and its only been worn once.Oh yar, somewhere in the third week of this month, I have to go to KL because one of my relative there is getting married.


No words to say, when you're away...

Woke up ard 7 plus in the morn.Went for hari raya prayer with my mom.Dressed up and met myra to get the henna.Before we leave the house,we apologised to one another.It was hard to hold back the tears but i was successful in not letting myself cry.The ishak family went to 3 houses today.Seranggon,yishun and lastly marsiling dr.The whole day was pretty much umm..okay.

I am indecisive.
I am easily excited.
I am blurr.
Slenger also..
I am slow.
I am getting fat.
My hands are not smooth and small.
I have acne problem.
I perspire easily.
I consider myself lame.
I am usually shy towards the opposite gender.
I find it hard to look into the eyes of the opposite gender when we're having a conversation.
I hate my hair.
I am a child at heart.
I cant swim.
But I can ride a bicycle.
I'm scared of spiders.
I love art.
I love hand made stuffs.
I tend to change topic when I dont want to answer a particular question.
I never smoke or drink.
I hate maths.
I hate milk.
I hate wearing rings.
I hate techno.
I have a soft spot towards children and furry animals.

.........

Woke up in the afternoon so the plan of going to emilo's sch was cancelled.But we went to ang mo kio instead to get the second hand high cut chucks from azri.At night, went terawih with my mom.After that,i took over emilo's place..paint the gate.Arghh..my room still looks like a tongkang pecah.So much to do,so little time.

Arghh! :P

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