Ella came over to my place to cut my hair.The length's still the same.The only thing is that its much more thinner.Emilo and i went to town to find shoes.The shoes are basically simple.I dont like the very fancy type with high heels and all.I like to keep everything pretty much simple.You must think that im a very boring and the most uninteresting person ever..So,break fast at a small little corner at tangs.Ate the fish combo from long john silver.Got home around 9pm.

My father brought his friends over to help paint the house.They'll be painting my bedroom navy blue.Emilo's the one who chose the colour and i dont mind it at all.Any colour's fine with me.The house was a mess.Seemed as though we were moving.Emilo and i scraped the paints off the gate.My father wanted to repaint it.It was tough so i had to use the thinner.The thinner made my hand real itchy and kind of swollen a bit.The stuffs in my bedroom were arranged in a different way.The bed,wardrobe,shelves..This reminds me of the time when we first moved to this house.Ohhh..how i miss marsiling drive badly.

Supposed to meet up with kamiliah at orchard mrt.She was half an hour late..We went window shopping.Saw this awesome leather cuff,denim jacket,slip on vans and some skirts.I'm aiming for those..Ooh and i saw this hair band and hair clip with a flower on it.I love flowers alot..especially roses.Pakai tu mesti suit dgn baju raye sey.Nampak feminine..haha.Must go there again and buy one of those..yeah.Break fast at bugis's delifrance.Reached home at around almost 10pm.

Went shopping with the whole ishak family at kotaraya.Was sort of fun.Especially when emilo's around.Goofing around..making fun of other people there and playing catching with fidzul..Tag team with emilo..heh.Bought a purple baju kebaya for myself while emilo bought a sort of reddish brown baju kebaya pendek at first lady.Oh and we saw the abg kedondong.Cute lahh dier..heheh.Bought a levi's jeans at his shop.

Aisah's dad sent us to Tampines mrt station.We took the mrt to simei from there.We walked all the way to changi general hospital.When we got there,we found out that there was a shuttle bus from simei mrt station.Kedondong..And we were extra early sey.So,we explore ard the hospital.Ingat nak carik mortuary..tadi tak jadik.Heheh..At 1230,there was a briefing.The people there were funny.I mean the organiser sume ar.We were divided into groups.I was separated from aisah but then i changed place with this sweet girl and i was in the same group as aisah..heh.Had to give out hampers to C class patients.Sorrow sank deep inside my blood when i saw their conditions.Some had no friends or family members visiting them.Some laid helplessly on their beds.That made me wonder whether i would be forgotten by the ones i love and care for if i were to be admitted to a hospital.I felt a great sense of satisfaction and was glad that i could lend them a hand.After that,i accompanied aisah to east pnt to see some pets.The hamsters over there was soooo..cute.That cute thang reminds me of someone..haha.The pups were also cute.Then,went to toys r us at tampines mall.We were extremely excited.I felt like a small kid again..heh.Naik bas 969 from tampines to admiralty.We were dead tired in the bus.Nak bebual pon cam tak bermaye gitu..haha.

Woke up ard 12 noon and I found out that i have fever.Decided to find jobs on monday.Stayed home the whole day;rest,play comp,do some sketches and read the novel which i bought from cikgu wahab.Tomorrow, i have to help shafiq to do some charity work at Changi General Hospital.Aisah will be following me..

I cant seem to fall asleep after waktu sahor.I dont know why.I turned to my left and right but my eyes just cant seem to shut.Its been raining for the past few days.Nights are usually cold these days.Suddenly,i felt extra cold.My body was quite warm.I have a slight fever.Sigh..i was suppose to go for a job interview at orchard at noon.Ade je lahh..Took panadol and fell asleep.Woke up ard 8 plus.Myra came over and find some jobs again.We got 2 interviews today.Decided to go for the one at scotts road opposite far east plaza first.Aisah,myra and i filled in the form and were interviewed all together.The boss was such a hilarious guy.I like his sense of humour.He's ard 29 and was chubby.Had piercings on his tongue and right ear.Rawk ar dier.We got the job as sales executive since that's the only position there is in the meantime.But then,we find that the job was tough.Had to sell 500 magnetic notepads within 1mth.Each cost $10 plak tu..We decided to find another job eventhough they would pay us $1k per mth.Its not that we're choosy or anything but we think that we cant do the job and its too hard.

Myra and i felt that its high time that we start to keep our bodies in shape once again.Our weights have increased ever since the holidays started.We decide to make a commitment to exercise regularly.The both of us planned to play badminton ard our area.Decided to meet under my blk at 8.30am.I waited for her for so long and i even fell asleep at the staircase while waiting.Rupe2,dier overslept lahh.Played badminton for awhile at blk 729.Then,we went to a court at ard the church.Off to myra's aunt's house to get her stuffs and we bought the straits times to find the jobs we wanted.At aisah's house,we called some to ask for more info on the jobs.Most of the jobs interview is today before 4pm.So,ingat tak paya lah..takot rushing sangat.But we are eyeing on this particular job which is umm..okay.She told us to call back tommorow since we cant make it today.Plan..plan..plan,tommorow then carry out the plan.I sleep early,ard 8 plus but then woke up ard 11 plus..

Raining the whole day.Morn to night.I feel so cold.It's kinda nice.

I was sleeping when my father woke me up and told me that we're going to malacca because my late grandfather's brother had just passed away at ard 6 in the morn.After my mother got home from work,the 3 of us were set to go.Emil didnt go because she still have exam the next day.When we were passing a road in johor,we saw a car in the middle of the 2 way road.It was dented.The licence plate came off and there were 2 people in the car.They seem to look horrified.On my left,it was a horrendous sight.My jaws dropped.There's another car but this car was upside down and was so dented.There's a woman inside struggling to get out.A couple of guys tried to get her out while a man took a video out of it.Overall there was no blood flowing on the road.This incident really made me think more about life.Losing the loved ones,the feeling,the consequences,the future,the past etc.We had to stop a lot because my father was sleepy.Got to the destination ard 4 plus.The jenazah was already dikebumikan at ard noon.I could feel the sadness and sorrow when i stepped into the house.But there's this group of adorable kids..they are so lively and they made me feel welcomed.Took pictures and videos of them with my father's hp.They seem to like it a lot.I was surrounded by those kids and it felt nice.I suddenly thought of becoming a kindergarten teacher..haha.Break fast at there and we went off.One of the kids named yaacob, he waved at me when my parents and i nak balek,the rest of them sibok main.Among all the kids,he always talked to me,asking how old was i and he even helped me to get my stuff..heheh.Best jugak tinggal kampong.We stopped on the way again..my father was sleepy.Bought some stuffs,eat at singgah selalu and went home.I hate being in the car for too long.Tak buat ape2 pon penat..den the road pon bumpy..sakit sak badan.Reached home at 2 in the morn.

Finally,exam's over.The holidays are here.But i cant seem to enjoy my holidays because i worry too much about my results.Especially maths.I want to go to sec 5 next yr.In the meantime, thought of finding a job but i dont want anything to do with fastfood.

Today's the last day of the n level exam for me,well for the art students ar..There's still dnt paper on monday for those taking dnt.Gd luck to them.Since monday,i've been sleeping over at my pak ngah's house.I feared that i might overslept and would be late for any of the papers.Dahlah rumah jauh,kene naik bus..Luckily i have relatives staying at marsiling.So,ever since monday..i've been walking to skool with arip and fin.But i usually go home with hilma and clan.Today's paper is maths paper2 and art.Art starts at 8am while maths paper 2 starts at 2.30pm.After art,aisah,myra and i went over to hilma's place.Lek-lek for a while then the 4 of us slept together on hilma's queen sized bed.Best tido..comfortable giler.Actually there's nothing special ar abt the bed,i think maybe its because i've been lacking of sleep and been sleeping on the floor for a few days(blaja kat floor pastu tertido)..bile baring kat katil..rase shiok sekali.We woke up at 1pm.Myra tido mati..i think if there's was an explosion,she would still be sleeping..haha.After praying,we revised maths.By the time we reached skool,i was sweating like hell coz we thought that we're late.Luckily,there's this big fan was right infront of me.Best sey..but the fan always makes my hair super messy then people always thought im stress when taking exam*sigh*.Maths paper 2 was so tough.Ms lee told me that my algebra was horrendous.She knows coz she saw me doing it while she was invigilating.After collecting my paper,she told me.."if you were to come back next yr,you should do something abt your maths".I quickly went home alone..leaving hilma and the clan behind.All the way..i tried holding back my tears.When i got to pak ngah's house,i let it all out as i laid motionless on the floor.Thinking of how my future would turn out to be.

manipulated
fine arts
12 april

a girl who is trying to figure out what life could bring
who is learning to appreciate the simple things in life
who never thought that she would fall for someone who contrasts sharply in abilities and interests.

Ella came over to my place to cut my hair.The length's still the same.The only thing is that its much more thinner.Emilo and i went to town to find shoes.The shoes are basically simple.I dont like the very fancy type with high heels and all.I like to keep everything pretty much simple.You must think that im a very boring and the most uninteresting person ever..So,break fast at a small little corner at tangs.Ate the fish combo from long john silver.Got home around 9pm.

My father brought his friends over to help paint the house.They'll be painting my bedroom navy blue.Emilo's the one who chose the colour and i dont mind it at all.Any colour's fine with me.The house was a mess.Seemed as though we were moving.Emilo and i scraped the paints off the gate.My father wanted to repaint it.It was tough so i had to use the thinner.The thinner made my hand real itchy and kind of swollen a bit.The stuffs in my bedroom were arranged in a different way.The bed,wardrobe,shelves..This reminds me of the time when we first moved to this house.Ohhh..how i miss marsiling drive badly.

Supposed to meet up with kamiliah at orchard mrt.She was half an hour late..We went window shopping.Saw this awesome leather cuff,denim jacket,slip on vans and some skirts.I'm aiming for those..Ooh and i saw this hair band and hair clip with a flower on it.I love flowers alot..especially roses.Pakai tu mesti suit dgn baju raye sey.Nampak feminine..haha.Must go there again and buy one of those..yeah.Break fast at bugis's delifrance.Reached home at around almost 10pm.

Went shopping with the whole ishak family at kotaraya.Was sort of fun.Especially when emilo's around.Goofing around..making fun of other people there and playing catching with fidzul..Tag team with emilo..heh.Bought a purple baju kebaya for myself while emilo bought a sort of reddish brown baju kebaya pendek at first lady.Oh and we saw the abg kedondong.Cute lahh dier..heheh.Bought a levi's jeans at his shop.

Aisah's dad sent us to Tampines mrt station.We took the mrt to simei from there.We walked all the way to changi general hospital.When we got there,we found out that there was a shuttle bus from simei mrt station.Kedondong..And we were extra early sey.So,we explore ard the hospital.Ingat nak carik mortuary..tadi tak jadik.Heheh..At 1230,there was a briefing.The people there were funny.I mean the organiser sume ar.We were divided into groups.I was separated from aisah but then i changed place with this sweet girl and i was in the same group as aisah..heh.Had to give out hampers to C class patients.Sorrow sank deep inside my blood when i saw their conditions.Some had no friends or family members visiting them.Some laid helplessly on their beds.That made me wonder whether i would be forgotten by the ones i love and care for if i were to be admitted to a hospital.I felt a great sense of satisfaction and was glad that i could lend them a hand.After that,i accompanied aisah to east pnt to see some pets.The hamsters over there was soooo..cute.That cute thang reminds me of someone..haha.The pups were also cute.Then,went to toys r us at tampines mall.We were extremely excited.I felt like a small kid again..heh.Naik bas 969 from tampines to admiralty.We were dead tired in the bus.Nak bebual pon cam tak bermaye gitu..haha.

Woke up ard 12 noon and I found out that i have fever.Decided to find jobs on monday.Stayed home the whole day;rest,play comp,do some sketches and read the novel which i bought from cikgu wahab.Tomorrow, i have to help shafiq to do some charity work at Changi General Hospital.Aisah will be following me..

I cant seem to fall asleep after waktu sahor.I dont know why.I turned to my left and right but my eyes just cant seem to shut.Its been raining for the past few days.Nights are usually cold these days.Suddenly,i felt extra cold.My body was quite warm.I have a slight fever.Sigh..i was suppose to go for a job interview at orchard at noon.Ade je lahh..Took panadol and fell asleep.Woke up ard 8 plus.Myra came over and find some jobs again.We got 2 interviews today.Decided to go for the one at scotts road opposite far east plaza first.Aisah,myra and i filled in the form and were interviewed all together.The boss was such a hilarious guy.I like his sense of humour.He's ard 29 and was chubby.Had piercings on his tongue and right ear.Rawk ar dier.We got the job as sales executive since that's the only position there is in the meantime.But then,we find that the job was tough.Had to sell 500 magnetic notepads within 1mth.Each cost $10 plak tu..We decided to find another job eventhough they would pay us $1k per mth.Its not that we're choosy or anything but we think that we cant do the job and its too hard.

Myra and i felt that its high time that we start to keep our bodies in shape once again.Our weights have increased ever since the holidays started.We decide to make a commitment to exercise regularly.The both of us planned to play badminton ard our area.Decided to meet under my blk at 8.30am.I waited for her for so long and i even fell asleep at the staircase while waiting.Rupe2,dier overslept lahh.Played badminton for awhile at blk 729.Then,we went to a court at ard the church.Off to myra's aunt's house to get her stuffs and we bought the straits times to find the jobs we wanted.At aisah's house,we called some to ask for more info on the jobs.Most of the jobs interview is today before 4pm.So,ingat tak paya lah..takot rushing sangat.But we are eyeing on this particular job which is umm..okay.She told us to call back tommorow since we cant make it today.Plan..plan..plan,tommorow then carry out the plan.I sleep early,ard 8 plus but then woke up ard 11 plus..

Raining the whole day.Morn to night.I feel so cold.It's kinda nice.

I was sleeping when my father woke me up and told me that we're going to malacca because my late grandfather's brother had just passed away at ard 6 in the morn.After my mother got home from work,the 3 of us were set to go.Emil didnt go because she still have exam the next day.When we were passing a road in johor,we saw a car in the middle of the 2 way road.It was dented.The licence plate came off and there were 2 people in the car.They seem to look horrified.On my left,it was a horrendous sight.My jaws dropped.There's another car but this car was upside down and was so dented.There's a woman inside struggling to get out.A couple of guys tried to get her out while a man took a video out of it.Overall there was no blood flowing on the road.This incident really made me think more about life.Losing the loved ones,the feeling,the consequences,the future,the past etc.We had to stop a lot because my father was sleepy.Got to the destination ard 4 plus.The jenazah was already dikebumikan at ard noon.I could feel the sadness and sorrow when i stepped into the house.But there's this group of adorable kids..they are so lively and they made me feel welcomed.Took pictures and videos of them with my father's hp.They seem to like it a lot.I was surrounded by those kids and it felt nice.I suddenly thought of becoming a kindergarten teacher..haha.Break fast at there and we went off.One of the kids named yaacob, he waved at me when my parents and i nak balek,the rest of them sibok main.Among all the kids,he always talked to me,asking how old was i and he even helped me to get my stuff..heheh.Best jugak tinggal kampong.We stopped on the way again..my father was sleepy.Bought some stuffs,eat at singgah selalu and went home.I hate being in the car for too long.Tak buat ape2 pon penat..den the road pon bumpy..sakit sak badan.Reached home at 2 in the morn.

Finally,exam's over.The holidays are here.But i cant seem to enjoy my holidays because i worry too much about my results.Especially maths.I want to go to sec 5 next yr.In the meantime, thought of finding a job but i dont want anything to do with fastfood.

Today's the last day of the n level exam for me,well for the art students ar..There's still dnt paper on monday for those taking dnt.Gd luck to them.Since monday,i've been sleeping over at my pak ngah's house.I feared that i might overslept and would be late for any of the papers.Dahlah rumah jauh,kene naik bus..Luckily i have relatives staying at marsiling.So,ever since monday..i've been walking to skool with arip and fin.But i usually go home with hilma and clan.Today's paper is maths paper2 and art.Art starts at 8am while maths paper 2 starts at 2.30pm.After art,aisah,myra and i went over to hilma's place.Lek-lek for a while then the 4 of us slept together on hilma's queen sized bed.Best tido..comfortable giler.Actually there's nothing special ar abt the bed,i think maybe its because i've been lacking of sleep and been sleeping on the floor for a few days(blaja kat floor pastu tertido)..bile baring kat katil..rase shiok sekali.We woke up at 1pm.Myra tido mati..i think if there's was an explosion,she would still be sleeping..haha.After praying,we revised maths.By the time we reached skool,i was sweating like hell coz we thought that we're late.Luckily,there's this big fan was right infront of me.Best sey..but the fan always makes my hair super messy then people always thought im stress when taking exam*sigh*.Maths paper 2 was so tough.Ms lee told me that my algebra was horrendous.She knows coz she saw me doing it while she was invigilating.After collecting my paper,she told me.."if you were to come back next yr,you should do something abt your maths".I quickly went home alone..leaving hilma and the clan behind.All the way..i tried holding back my tears.When i got to pak ngah's house,i let it all out as i laid motionless on the floor.Thinking of how my future would turn out to be.

Arghh! :P

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