Calvin told us that the badminton interclass tournament is tomorrow.Everyone was quite shocked coz we thought it was on the 29th of April and we have not practiced yet.Last year,i played girls double with nazirah.For this year,im thinking of playing mixed double with him.At night,i smsed him..told him that the badminton interclass tournament is tomorrow and asked him if he's playing.He said that he has signed up for it but ham said that he's not playing.Alahh..he told me that he's sad but that's alright.He really wants to take part.The next day,i discussed with ham and calvin about him playing mixed double with me.Im trying my best to persuade calvin and ham.I really want him to take part so that i could play mixed double with him.*sobs*.i saw him talking to ham after that..he said that he wants to take part and wants to play mixed double with me.Alahh...After skool,the teacher in charge told us that the match was cancelled coz of the syf thingy.So,the match will be postponed to next tuesday.I hope that one of the guys who's supposed to play couldnt make it so that he would have a chance to play.Muahahahahahah....i sound so sinister.

Woke up late this morning.Tried to get a cab but failed to.Went home again and woke up my father,so he could send me to skool on time.I was already desperate..i dont like to wake my father while he's having his beauty sleep.He'll shout at me for sure.Despite all,he still sent me to skool.Heheh..Thanx to my father,i wasnt late.Since his 2 close friends didnt come to skool today,i've decided to give that twisted lollypop to him.Ella didnt come to skool today..haiya.The first period of the day was physics.Im trying really hard to focus on this subject..I copied every single thing mr wong wrote on the board..so that i could revise at home.I flunked all my physics class test.He kept asking me whether i understood or not.During maths lesson,he took out his peanutbutter sandwich.I saw him giving some of it to zhi long.Then,he called me.I turned to him..he was taking something out from his bag.It was the sandwich..he wanted to give me a small piece.I gave him that lollypop..at the same time.He startled and he dropped that piece of bread..i was like..alah,kesiannye..sedih sey..I felt really bad.I'm thinking of making him a peanutbutter sandwich one day as a replacement.Haiz..History lesson,i had to stand coz i handed my assignment late.Before that, he asked me to sit next to him in history class but i didnt.Last period of the day,the whole skool had to assemble at the hall to watch a movie.The Wizard of Oz.It was pretty lame but it was okay.There's social studies remedial after skool.Not many came..me,izni,chai peng,wei kiat,him..my friend has this hp which could take pic.He wanted to take a pic with me..he asked me twice but i refused.*eyesrolling*.Then,watched aisah play badminton..her badminton interclass match is today.Mine's next week.

Aisah's absent today.After assembly,i went to the stadium with chai peng and jia lei.Izni has to go straight home..while ella planned to watch movie with her bf.Feel so lonely without them..At the stadium,i sat alone while waiting for the person who's in charge of attendance to come.Suddenly,he sat next to me..my heart was beating fast at that moment but i acted cool.He asked me,"iznor..asal sorang je..?".I told him that all of my close friends have other plans.My classmate,revathy was sitting in front of me..he was like.."alah,sibok ar you revathy..".I just smiled.I ran 800m alone..ran 2 rounds non stop.While running,i think i heard his voice..he probably cheered for me but im not quite sure.Then,it was his turn to run.I saw him running..i cheered for him but i dont think he heard me.I went to causeway pnt after that with chai peng and jia lei.Then,i hangout with chai peng.We ate ice cream..yummy.chai peng blaja me..hehe.We sat at a little corner and talked while eating ice cream.. it was nice..

I was supposed to go my uncle's house.My siblings and i have to attend his religious class EVERY saturday afternoon.I didnt go today coz im going to the Victoria Concert Hall to see our skool band perform.Izni,aisah and i planned to go there together to support ella.But then,izni called and said that she cant make it..So,i went there with aisah.Took the mrt from admiralty to raffles place.Everyone there,looked so grand..while aisah and i dressed as if we're going to town..hehe.When they got to the stage..aisah and i shouted to show some support.Aisah and i was like,"Go Ella...!!!".Wdls sec skool band performed really well in my opinion.After that,i heard that there's an indie gig going on at esplanade,waterfront.I really want to check it out.Aisah and i went there.According to the flyer which the lady gave me..it states that force vomit will be performing at 10pm.I really really really want to see them perform.There's 3 performance today.The first performance was cancelled due to the bad weather condition.I wanted to stay..but aisah has to go.Her mom called.Man...So,we went to old chang kee and seven eleven to buy some stuffs.We saw a group of skinheads and rudies on the way..was a bit scary ar.Aisah and i took different trains..she had to meet the family at expo.When i got off the train,i noticed this guy wearing a white shirt..he was looking at me.I turned away.Was walking infront of admiralty pri when i realised that..he was walking the same way as me..then,he crossed the road..so,he's walking the same route,only opposite.I was like.."wtf..!!".My heart was beating faster and faster..i ran as soon as i got under my blk.wouhh..

I didn't take the bus to skool this morning but instead i walked from my aunt's house at marsiling.Went out at 7am..with the hope to "accidentally" bump into him.Sadly,he was nowhere in sight..By the time,i got to skool..i was already perspiring like hell..Everyone in skool was to assemble at the hall instead of the tarmac coz there's going to be a public caning.In class,he talks to me a lot.In the afternoon,there's going to be a netball interclass tournament.For this yr,boys were allowed to participate.5 girls and 2 boys were allowed on the court.Okay,so..the first match was against 4A.My position was C.Before starting,ryan,my opponent and i shook hands.He didnt play for the first match.I heard him shouting,"Go iznor..!!".So supportive..*smiles widely*.My class lost the first match.The second was against 5A.This time,I became WA.He was so slenger sey..haha.Cute ar..the way he plays netball.I cant stop myself from smiling through out the matches played.I fell hard while playing against 5A.So paiseh.He saw me fell..in fact,many peeps saw me fell.He asked me if i was alright.I told him that im okay..even though im not.I didnt want to make it a big deal.He even asked me that after the match.Last match was against 4D.My class,4E lost all of the matches played.Although we lost,we had fun.So much fun..I went home alone..walked all the way to my aunt's house.At night,my father fetched my sis and i.

There was a bit of a mix up with the interclass netball tournament schedule.I thought that the match was today but its actually on thursday.I told the rest of the players that there's going to be a training this afternoon.I thought of teaching them the footworks and some skills.After skool,i chased after mdm louis..to borrow a ball from her.We walked all the way to the staff room.Fin and arip came..i went to the toilet.When i came back..i was told that the teacher downstairs confiscated our ball.Fin and arip were playing with the ball,when one of them accidentally threw the downstairs.The both of them tried to get the ball back but the teacher wouldnt let them have it.Fuck arh!!!.Shamil and i went downstairs to try our luck after that.That teacher talked to much sia..!!.We tried pleading and begging.At last,she decided to give us the ball back but there was a catch to it.I..yes me..have to write a report to what really happened.She asked shamil to leave the class and leave me alone to write the report.Damn...since i borrowed the ball,i have to be fully responsible for the whole thing.I dont blame them for what have happened.What's done is done.She then,told me to sign my name at the bottom.Haiz..im just worried that mdm louis will be disappointed with me.After getting the ball,we all went to the basketball court near blk 2 to practise.We had a friendly match against 4D.I became C.Before starting,he told my opponent alan,"if you touch her ar..".My mouth were opened,i was speechless.It was hard guarding alan coz he's fast and also tall.Then,he..this person and me collided into each other.It was nice..hehe.I saw him smiling after that..hhmm...i wonder why.Went home with aisah,moon and izni.

Today..izni,sarah,my sis and i decided to play badminton at the wdls sports hall.I asked shafiq,sabree,hamzah and sahalif to join us coz whenever they go jamming,they usually invite me and izni all..So,we all meet at 4pm at the wdls sports hall.I've already booked a court yesterday.At first,we played double..izni and i vs sarah and my sis.Then,izni and i played against shafiq and his friend,man..it was damn fun!!!.The way the guys play badminton..are so funny and cute.They also love to crack up jokes in the middle of playing badminton...It was really really really fun.An hour isn't enough..so, we extended another hour.After that,all of us went to the wdls stadium.Shafiq,sabree,hamzah and their friend,man jogged around the tracks.Sahalif didn't run..hehe.He just records everything through the video cam.Izni,sarah,my sis and i just walked around the tracks and watch what they're doing.We all went home while the guys were still at the stadium.Around 7.50pm,my sis and i went to wdls library to do ur hw and stuffs..izni and sarah joined us.Then,we walked around wlds ring to find a spot to do ur work.Izni suddenly realised that she lost her hp.Went back to the interchange to find it but it wasnt thre anymore..she totally broke down.Man..we knew that some old lady took the hp..the shopkeeper nearby told us.We all were like cursing the old lady..haiz..-retribution-.When my sis and i got home,i smsed fiq.And then,he smsed me!!.I was like..OMG!!!!!!.He told me that there's a gig going on at NUS tomorrow and whether i wanna go.I told him that im usually not free on saturday coz i have to go to my uncle's house.. got religious class.He was like.."kay,nevermind..gd nite".I could tell that he's really disappointed.I apologised to him several times and said happy birthday to him in advance.He'll be turning a yr older tomorrow.He replied back..and sounded really happy..he said that i was the first one who wished him happy birthday.He asked me..whether im going anywhere during the holidays..what time was i going to sleep and all..*sigh*.

Heats for sport's day starts today with the 1500m event.My class monitor wanted the whole class to participate so that our class could gain more points but not the whole class was there,just as i expected.Anyway,i planned to take part but i had cough and flu.My father didn't want me to run.I went there to accompany aisah.I felt really really really bad sey..feels as if i've let my class down..especially him.*Sigh*.Ard 8pm,i smsed him saying that i was sorry coz i didnt run and that i'll be taking part in the 800m event this monday..He just replied okay..and at least 7 of our classmates took part in that event.Im glad he understands...

I stayed back after skool for art.Aisah was absent..ella had some plans of her own..At 1pm,chai peng,sandy,yu fang and i went to the heritage room to finish our painting.Ms yong said that..we have to finish the painting..sooner or later.Ms lin was there to accompany us but she has to go ard 2pm coz there's a meeting.At 2pm,she left us in the room.We have the whole room to ourselves..muahahaha.I changed the radio station..to perfect 10.Sandy went off first..she's got to go for her cca.Then,it was chai peng.So,left me and yu fang.Yu fang and i talked about the stuffs we never talked before like boys,our experiences and such..it was nice talking to her.Around 4pm,ms lin came..yu fang went home.Ms lin helped me to paint some parts.Suddenly,we heard a strange noise coming from the window..it sounded like someone was trying to break in from the window..but there was no one.Both of us ignored and continued painting.Actually i wanted to do everything on my own but then..haiya, i just have to appreciate her help..I wanted to do it with my own sweat,effort and hardwork. Ms lin and ms yong said that im patient coz the painting was very complicated and confusing.With the help of ms lin,we managed to finish the painting..around 5pm..I asked ms lin..about becoming an art teacher.While walking to the staff room..she told me the main criteria,what i have to do and all..I want to become an art teacher someday..or set up my own bakery shop..For CA,i failed maths,combined humanities and combined science.Shheesh..At around 7.50pm,my friends including him..meet up for group study.He looks nice.*smiles*.I dont know why but i just cant absorb anything that i was taught or concentrate.Maybe i was lethargic at that time..He seem to concentrate more on this certain friend of mine..im not sure why..but i was a little bit jealous..Okay..okay..i confess..i was jealous.

I caught the same bus as aisah.She's usually late but not today..hehe.In the bus,we sat next to each other..we're both really sleepy and our eyes were half opened.When the bus stopped at the Admiralty mrt station,i saw this guy..standing near the door.He looks so familiar..and then i remember that he's my ex-skoolmate.He's currently skooling in wdls ring sec.Next to him was sif..I was like "what the fuck!!!???".Why the hell is he boarding the same bus as me..???.And then,i realised that today was wdls ring sec's sports day..Man,i have not seen him since last december..its not that i missed him or anything..im just shocked.After seeing him,i wasnt sleepy anymore..haiz,spoiler sey..haha..I know that he saw me in the bus.I pretended that i didnt see him..He really broke my heart..i thought he was the one.He was too good to be true..but one things for sure..i have never regretted knowing him.Hope he finds the one...

manipulated
fine arts
12 april

a girl who is trying to figure out what life could bring
who is learning to appreciate the simple things in life
who never thought that she would fall for someone who contrasts sharply in abilities and interests.

Calvin told us that the badminton interclass tournament is tomorrow.Everyone was quite shocked coz we thought it was on the 29th of April and we have not practiced yet.Last year,i played girls double with nazirah.For this year,im thinking of playing mixed double with him.At night,i smsed him..told him that the badminton interclass tournament is tomorrow and asked him if he's playing.He said that he has signed up for it but ham said that he's not playing.Alahh..he told me that he's sad but that's alright.He really wants to take part.The next day,i discussed with ham and calvin about him playing mixed double with me.Im trying my best to persuade calvin and ham.I really want him to take part so that i could play mixed double with him.*sobs*.i saw him talking to ham after that..he said that he wants to take part and wants to play mixed double with me.Alahh...After skool,the teacher in charge told us that the match was cancelled coz of the syf thingy.So,the match will be postponed to next tuesday.I hope that one of the guys who's supposed to play couldnt make it so that he would have a chance to play.Muahahahahahah....i sound so sinister.

Woke up late this morning.Tried to get a cab but failed to.Went home again and woke up my father,so he could send me to skool on time.I was already desperate..i dont like to wake my father while he's having his beauty sleep.He'll shout at me for sure.Despite all,he still sent me to skool.Heheh..Thanx to my father,i wasnt late.Since his 2 close friends didnt come to skool today,i've decided to give that twisted lollypop to him.Ella didnt come to skool today..haiya.The first period of the day was physics.Im trying really hard to focus on this subject..I copied every single thing mr wong wrote on the board..so that i could revise at home.I flunked all my physics class test.He kept asking me whether i understood or not.During maths lesson,he took out his peanutbutter sandwich.I saw him giving some of it to zhi long.Then,he called me.I turned to him..he was taking something out from his bag.It was the sandwich..he wanted to give me a small piece.I gave him that lollypop..at the same time.He startled and he dropped that piece of bread..i was like..alah,kesiannye..sedih sey..I felt really bad.I'm thinking of making him a peanutbutter sandwich one day as a replacement.Haiz..History lesson,i had to stand coz i handed my assignment late.Before that, he asked me to sit next to him in history class but i didnt.Last period of the day,the whole skool had to assemble at the hall to watch a movie.The Wizard of Oz.It was pretty lame but it was okay.There's social studies remedial after skool.Not many came..me,izni,chai peng,wei kiat,him..my friend has this hp which could take pic.He wanted to take a pic with me..he asked me twice but i refused.*eyesrolling*.Then,watched aisah play badminton..her badminton interclass match is today.Mine's next week.

Aisah's absent today.After assembly,i went to the stadium with chai peng and jia lei.Izni has to go straight home..while ella planned to watch movie with her bf.Feel so lonely without them..At the stadium,i sat alone while waiting for the person who's in charge of attendance to come.Suddenly,he sat next to me..my heart was beating fast at that moment but i acted cool.He asked me,"iznor..asal sorang je..?".I told him that all of my close friends have other plans.My classmate,revathy was sitting in front of me..he was like.."alah,sibok ar you revathy..".I just smiled.I ran 800m alone..ran 2 rounds non stop.While running,i think i heard his voice..he probably cheered for me but im not quite sure.Then,it was his turn to run.I saw him running..i cheered for him but i dont think he heard me.I went to causeway pnt after that with chai peng and jia lei.Then,i hangout with chai peng.We ate ice cream..yummy.chai peng blaja me..hehe.We sat at a little corner and talked while eating ice cream.. it was nice..

I was supposed to go my uncle's house.My siblings and i have to attend his religious class EVERY saturday afternoon.I didnt go today coz im going to the Victoria Concert Hall to see our skool band perform.Izni,aisah and i planned to go there together to support ella.But then,izni called and said that she cant make it..So,i went there with aisah.Took the mrt from admiralty to raffles place.Everyone there,looked so grand..while aisah and i dressed as if we're going to town..hehe.When they got to the stage..aisah and i shouted to show some support.Aisah and i was like,"Go Ella...!!!".Wdls sec skool band performed really well in my opinion.After that,i heard that there's an indie gig going on at esplanade,waterfront.I really want to check it out.Aisah and i went there.According to the flyer which the lady gave me..it states that force vomit will be performing at 10pm.I really really really want to see them perform.There's 3 performance today.The first performance was cancelled due to the bad weather condition.I wanted to stay..but aisah has to go.Her mom called.Man...So,we went to old chang kee and seven eleven to buy some stuffs.We saw a group of skinheads and rudies on the way..was a bit scary ar.Aisah and i took different trains..she had to meet the family at expo.When i got off the train,i noticed this guy wearing a white shirt..he was looking at me.I turned away.Was walking infront of admiralty pri when i realised that..he was walking the same way as me..then,he crossed the road..so,he's walking the same route,only opposite.I was like.."wtf..!!".My heart was beating faster and faster..i ran as soon as i got under my blk.wouhh..

I didn't take the bus to skool this morning but instead i walked from my aunt's house at marsiling.Went out at 7am..with the hope to "accidentally" bump into him.Sadly,he was nowhere in sight..By the time,i got to skool..i was already perspiring like hell..Everyone in skool was to assemble at the hall instead of the tarmac coz there's going to be a public caning.In class,he talks to me a lot.In the afternoon,there's going to be a netball interclass tournament.For this yr,boys were allowed to participate.5 girls and 2 boys were allowed on the court.Okay,so..the first match was against 4A.My position was C.Before starting,ryan,my opponent and i shook hands.He didnt play for the first match.I heard him shouting,"Go iznor..!!".So supportive..*smiles widely*.My class lost the first match.The second was against 5A.This time,I became WA.He was so slenger sey..haha.Cute ar..the way he plays netball.I cant stop myself from smiling through out the matches played.I fell hard while playing against 5A.So paiseh.He saw me fell..in fact,many peeps saw me fell.He asked me if i was alright.I told him that im okay..even though im not.I didnt want to make it a big deal.He even asked me that after the match.Last match was against 4D.My class,4E lost all of the matches played.Although we lost,we had fun.So much fun..I went home alone..walked all the way to my aunt's house.At night,my father fetched my sis and i.

There was a bit of a mix up with the interclass netball tournament schedule.I thought that the match was today but its actually on thursday.I told the rest of the players that there's going to be a training this afternoon.I thought of teaching them the footworks and some skills.After skool,i chased after mdm louis..to borrow a ball from her.We walked all the way to the staff room.Fin and arip came..i went to the toilet.When i came back..i was told that the teacher downstairs confiscated our ball.Fin and arip were playing with the ball,when one of them accidentally threw the downstairs.The both of them tried to get the ball back but the teacher wouldnt let them have it.Fuck arh!!!.Shamil and i went downstairs to try our luck after that.That teacher talked to much sia..!!.We tried pleading and begging.At last,she decided to give us the ball back but there was a catch to it.I..yes me..have to write a report to what really happened.She asked shamil to leave the class and leave me alone to write the report.Damn...since i borrowed the ball,i have to be fully responsible for the whole thing.I dont blame them for what have happened.What's done is done.She then,told me to sign my name at the bottom.Haiz..im just worried that mdm louis will be disappointed with me.After getting the ball,we all went to the basketball court near blk 2 to practise.We had a friendly match against 4D.I became C.Before starting,he told my opponent alan,"if you touch her ar..".My mouth were opened,i was speechless.It was hard guarding alan coz he's fast and also tall.Then,he..this person and me collided into each other.It was nice..hehe.I saw him smiling after that..hhmm...i wonder why.Went home with aisah,moon and izni.

Today..izni,sarah,my sis and i decided to play badminton at the wdls sports hall.I asked shafiq,sabree,hamzah and sahalif to join us coz whenever they go jamming,they usually invite me and izni all..So,we all meet at 4pm at the wdls sports hall.I've already booked a court yesterday.At first,we played double..izni and i vs sarah and my sis.Then,izni and i played against shafiq and his friend,man..it was damn fun!!!.The way the guys play badminton..are so funny and cute.They also love to crack up jokes in the middle of playing badminton...It was really really really fun.An hour isn't enough..so, we extended another hour.After that,all of us went to the wdls stadium.Shafiq,sabree,hamzah and their friend,man jogged around the tracks.Sahalif didn't run..hehe.He just records everything through the video cam.Izni,sarah,my sis and i just walked around the tracks and watch what they're doing.We all went home while the guys were still at the stadium.Around 7.50pm,my sis and i went to wdls library to do ur hw and stuffs..izni and sarah joined us.Then,we walked around wlds ring to find a spot to do ur work.Izni suddenly realised that she lost her hp.Went back to the interchange to find it but it wasnt thre anymore..she totally broke down.Man..we knew that some old lady took the hp..the shopkeeper nearby told us.We all were like cursing the old lady..haiz..-retribution-.When my sis and i got home,i smsed fiq.And then,he smsed me!!.I was like..OMG!!!!!!.He told me that there's a gig going on at NUS tomorrow and whether i wanna go.I told him that im usually not free on saturday coz i have to go to my uncle's house.. got religious class.He was like.."kay,nevermind..gd nite".I could tell that he's really disappointed.I apologised to him several times and said happy birthday to him in advance.He'll be turning a yr older tomorrow.He replied back..and sounded really happy..he said that i was the first one who wished him happy birthday.He asked me..whether im going anywhere during the holidays..what time was i going to sleep and all..*sigh*.

Heats for sport's day starts today with the 1500m event.My class monitor wanted the whole class to participate so that our class could gain more points but not the whole class was there,just as i expected.Anyway,i planned to take part but i had cough and flu.My father didn't want me to run.I went there to accompany aisah.I felt really really really bad sey..feels as if i've let my class down..especially him.*Sigh*.Ard 8pm,i smsed him saying that i was sorry coz i didnt run and that i'll be taking part in the 800m event this monday..He just replied okay..and at least 7 of our classmates took part in that event.Im glad he understands...

I stayed back after skool for art.Aisah was absent..ella had some plans of her own..At 1pm,chai peng,sandy,yu fang and i went to the heritage room to finish our painting.Ms yong said that..we have to finish the painting..sooner or later.Ms lin was there to accompany us but she has to go ard 2pm coz there's a meeting.At 2pm,she left us in the room.We have the whole room to ourselves..muahahaha.I changed the radio station..to perfect 10.Sandy went off first..she's got to go for her cca.Then,it was chai peng.So,left me and yu fang.Yu fang and i talked about the stuffs we never talked before like boys,our experiences and such..it was nice talking to her.Around 4pm,ms lin came..yu fang went home.Ms lin helped me to paint some parts.Suddenly,we heard a strange noise coming from the window..it sounded like someone was trying to break in from the window..but there was no one.Both of us ignored and continued painting.Actually i wanted to do everything on my own but then..haiya, i just have to appreciate her help..I wanted to do it with my own sweat,effort and hardwork. Ms lin and ms yong said that im patient coz the painting was very complicated and confusing.With the help of ms lin,we managed to finish the painting..around 5pm..I asked ms lin..about becoming an art teacher.While walking to the staff room..she told me the main criteria,what i have to do and all..I want to become an art teacher someday..or set up my own bakery shop..For CA,i failed maths,combined humanities and combined science.Shheesh..At around 7.50pm,my friends including him..meet up for group study.He looks nice.*smiles*.I dont know why but i just cant absorb anything that i was taught or concentrate.Maybe i was lethargic at that time..He seem to concentrate more on this certain friend of mine..im not sure why..but i was a little bit jealous..Okay..okay..i confess..i was jealous.

I caught the same bus as aisah.She's usually late but not today..hehe.In the bus,we sat next to each other..we're both really sleepy and our eyes were half opened.When the bus stopped at the Admiralty mrt station,i saw this guy..standing near the door.He looks so familiar..and then i remember that he's my ex-skoolmate.He's currently skooling in wdls ring sec.Next to him was sif..I was like "what the fuck!!!???".Why the hell is he boarding the same bus as me..???.And then,i realised that today was wdls ring sec's sports day..Man,i have not seen him since last december..its not that i missed him or anything..im just shocked.After seeing him,i wasnt sleepy anymore..haiz,spoiler sey..haha..I know that he saw me in the bus.I pretended that i didnt see him..He really broke my heart..i thought he was the one.He was too good to be true..but one things for sure..i have never regretted knowing him.Hope he finds the one...

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